To My Daughter who disowned me on August 24th, 2012

Hello Chrissy, I know you don't like me. I wouldn't like me either if I was you. I gave you to your father when you were only 3. I can see how you think I didn't want you. I took your sister and left you. That is very hard for a child to fathom. AND I do blame me every day for that. I really wish I would have thought differently. I was young and I really thought at the time I was doing it for your best interest. You daddy loved you so, so I knew you would be well cared for. I loved you too. I know that is hard for you to believe. I still love you even with you calling me a bitch and telling me I am just the lady who gave birth to you. I have tried to get back into your life. But you didn't really want me there. I won't bother you anymore. I just want you to know I love you and think of you daily. Will love you until I die. I am sorry for all the hurt I caused you. I hope you have a wonderful life and are always happy.

FROM: The lady who gave birth to you

I think I may have found a job!

I put a cragslist ad up for a room in exchange for work and got a call from someone who wants someone to stay with their elderly mother. It's in Tucson but really that is where I wanted to go to begin with. Please pray or keep your fingers crossed that everything goes well and they like me. It sounds like the perfect thing for me and I can save money. I will let you guys know as soon as I find out.  but in the mean time it's a road trip to Tucson  wheehaw!!!and they paid for my bus fare. Will write more later!  NEVER GIVE UP HOPE!!!!  Miracles do happen!

Tuesday, today is a so so day

Not much luck on searching for work. Not one place has called. Other personal life things are bringing me down. I did go to the senior center today and it was a mans 105th birthday. He looks really well. I hope i look that good at 105 assuming I make it that far.  I will continue to search. In the mean time I want everyone to know if i do get homeless, I am not a drug user, nor an alcoholic. I don't cuss or smoke. I just hope being homeless doesn't change any of that. But it is kinda hard to do those things without money. I doubt I would anyways.  I hate smoke and I don't like alcohol or drugs. I do not take prescribed meds unless it is an antibiotic. I hate pain pills. I just end up sick. As far as asking for money I will never ask.  BUT I will never turn away anyone who is kind and generous enough to send me some either. I am just  a person who has seen some hard times and cant find a way out of them. I am working hard too change that though. I still have till June 4th. If you want to help me please share my blog with whoever you can. Maybe I might help another person or I might get help from some where I never thought of.

For all the judgemental people out there

I did not ask for money. I put the donate button there because  I have been asked by people if they want to donate how should they go about it. it is for them I put it there. I will not say no to a donation But i will also not ask. I am struggling. but I hate asking for help. I help out at the senior center in the kitchen and whenever someone asks for help. I don't have money to ride a bus to  soup kitchen to help out or I would. So this is the best I can do. I walk a mile  a day each way to and from the senior center.

My diary on becoming homeless: Just a quick thank you

My diary on becoming homeless: Just a quick thank you: You guys are aswesome!! Thank you for the donations  I was able to get bus tickets and get my phone recharged for my job hunting. Also than...

Just a quick thank you

You guys are aswesome!! Thank you for the donations  I was able to get bus tickets and get my phone recharged for my job hunting. Also thanks for all the people sharing this blog. It has helped a lot. AND I do hope that in the end when I get myself out of this situation I have helped someone else who needs it. AND you all help too.  Please keep sharing this and whatever else you can do. Even some thing little can be helpful. If your not sure  then go ahead and do it anyways. if you have a question for me please ask. I really think I was put in this situation for a reason and I know soon I get the help I need to get out of it.  God Bless you all.

See you guys tomorrow!!

My diary on becoming homeless: Places I applied for today for a job

My diary on becoming homeless: Places I applied for today for a job: I looked on Craigslist and found this job Customer service and sales  http://phoenix.craigslist.org/evl/csr/3001935774.html Will apply ...