To My Daughter who disowned me on August 24th, 2012

Hello Chrissy, I know you don't like me. I wouldn't like me either if I was you. I gave you to your father when you were only 3. I can see how you think I didn't want you. I took your sister and left you. That is very hard for a child to fathom. AND I do blame me every day for that. I really wish I would have thought differently. I was young and I really thought at the time I was doing it for your best interest. You daddy loved you so, so I knew you would be well cared for. I loved you too. I know that is hard for you to believe. I still love you even with you calling me a bitch and telling me I am just the lady who gave birth to you. I have tried to get back into your life. But you didn't really want me there. I won't bother you anymore. I just want you to know I love you and think of you daily. Will love you until I die. I am sorry for all the hurt I caused you. I hope you have a wonderful life and are always happy.

FROM: The lady who gave birth to you

I think I may have found a job!

I put a cragslist ad up for a room in exchange for work and got a call from someone who wants someone to stay with their elderly mother. It's in Tucson but really that is where I wanted to go to begin with. Please pray or keep your fingers crossed that everything goes well and they like me. It sounds like the perfect thing for me and I can save money. I will let you guys know as soon as I find out.  but in the mean time it's a road trip to Tucson  wheehaw!!!and they paid for my bus fare. Will write more later!  NEVER GIVE UP HOPE!!!!  Miracles do happen!

Tuesday, today is a so so day

Not much luck on searching for work. Not one place has called. Other personal life things are bringing me down. I did go to the senior center today and it was a mans 105th birthday. He looks really well. I hope i look that good at 105 assuming I make it that far.  I will continue to search. In the mean time I want everyone to know if i do get homeless, I am not a drug user, nor an alcoholic. I don't cuss or smoke. I just hope being homeless doesn't change any of that. But it is kinda hard to do those things without money. I doubt I would anyways.  I hate smoke and I don't like alcohol or drugs. I do not take prescribed meds unless it is an antibiotic. I hate pain pills. I just end up sick. As far as asking for money I will never ask.  BUT I will never turn away anyone who is kind and generous enough to send me some either. I am just  a person who has seen some hard times and cant find a way out of them. I am working hard too change that though. I still have till June 4th. If you want to help me please share my blog with whoever you can. Maybe I might help another person or I might get help from some where I never thought of.

For all the judgemental people out there

I did not ask for money. I put the donate button there because  I have been asked by people if they want to donate how should they go about it. it is for them I put it there. I will not say no to a donation But i will also not ask. I am struggling. but I hate asking for help. I help out at the senior center in the kitchen and whenever someone asks for help. I don't have money to ride a bus to  soup kitchen to help out or I would. So this is the best I can do. I walk a mile  a day each way to and from the senior center.

My diary on becoming homeless: Just a quick thank you

My diary on becoming homeless: Just a quick thank you: You guys are aswesome!! Thank you for the donations  I was able to get bus tickets and get my phone recharged for my job hunting. Also than...

Just a quick thank you

You guys are aswesome!! Thank you for the donations  I was able to get bus tickets and get my phone recharged for my job hunting. Also thanks for all the people sharing this blog. It has helped a lot. AND I do hope that in the end when I get myself out of this situation I have helped someone else who needs it. AND you all help too.  Please keep sharing this and whatever else you can do. Even some thing little can be helpful. If your not sure  then go ahead and do it anyways. if you have a question for me please ask. I really think I was put in this situation for a reason and I know soon I get the help I need to get out of it.  God Bless you all.

See you guys tomorrow!!

My diary on becoming homeless: Places I applied for today for a job

My diary on becoming homeless: Places I applied for today for a job: I looked on Craigslist and found this job Customer service and sales  http://phoenix.craigslist.org/evl/csr/3001935774.html Will apply ...

Places I applied for today for a job

I looked on Craigslist and found this job

Customer service and sales http://phoenix.craigslist.org/evl/csr/3001935774.html

Will apply for this one tomorrow as it says must apply in person  csr

I also called about a job and left my name and number


I am still looking for more to apply for most of them listed I have already applied

I will keep you all updated on my progress

If you want to help me with my journey please share my story with others.  Who knows I might also help someone else by telling my story.

Monday

Monday is usually a bad day for most people because the weekend is over but for me it's just another day. I packed up my laptop and headed to the senior center to use their wifi. I like the people here at the Chandler senior center they are all so nice. When I arrived one of the ladies here had a blouse for me it is a nice one and i can use it for job interviews. Another lady paid for my bingo tickets.  They are very sweet here. The people and the staff. if you ever get down to Chandler come by and say hi. They have wifi so I can write in my blog and look for more jobs. Which i intend to do after I post this.  I will keep you updated on my job search.  Oh I did put an ad up on the bulletin board for a room or even a couch to sleep on. We will see what happens.

Here is one place i called. it is at home work but not sure if its real or not.  Leave me a comment and let me know what you think.  http://phoenix.craigslist.org/evl/sls/3000803583.html

My diary on becoming homeless: I left my home in Portland , Oregon in October 201...

My diary on becoming homeless: I left my home in Portland , Oregon in October 201...: I left my home in Portland , Oregon in October 2011 also left my husband of  26 years. There was nothing left for us. I went to stay with ...

My diary on becoming homeless: Job application

My diary on becoming homeless: Job application: Here is a place i just applied at they are hiring if you live in the Phoenix area PCC (pro life activists) 49 S Sycamore suite 3 Mesa,...

Job application

Here is a place i just applied at they are hiring if you live in the Phoenix area

PCC (pro life activists)
49 S Sycamore
suite 3
Mesa, AZ

They say you can apply anytime

Today is Sunday

Sunday is not a good day to get much done although I will be going through the ads for jobs and putting in applications.
I thought I would talk a bit about what people take for granted. Since I have no job I have no money. When you have no money you cant get around well. You need money for gas or bus fare. In my case its bus fare as i have no car which is probably a good thing since Cars are even more expensive. You need access to a phone so potential job places can call you. I have a prepaid cell phone but right now I have about two minutes left on it and at ten cents per min. It will be gone soon. Once its gone even if a employer wanted to hire me they couldn't call me. I have had people tell me things like  go to this place they give you free training.  I would if i had bus fare to get there. I guess i could walk the six miles in the Arizona sun but at 57 my legs dont wanna move like that anymore. I already walk two miles a day and that really wears me out.You say why dont i sell something?  Because the only thing i have that might be worth a few bucks is my computer. My computer is what keeps me going and keeps me connected to everyone.  So, no I wont sell my laptop. My clothes are slowly falling apart because I cant afford to buy new ones. People wonder why homeless people look so ratty  its because they have no money to do things. They have no place to sleep and no way to keep clean. Unless its a bathroom where they can wash up.

I can see why people my age are homeless, there is no help out there. Except for food which is  a good thing otherwise you would have alot of dead homeless people. I am scared to be homeless because of all the horror stories I have heard. people getting beaten up just for being homeless. When you are on the street there is no protection from anything. And sleeping is all but impossible. You go to sleep and there is no telling what can happen. Somebody could come up and smash your head in or cut you. Its very scary. Please if you want to help me please all I ask is you share my story with your friends and people you know.
Thank you

I left my home in Portland , Oregon in October 2011 also left my husband of  26 years. There was nothing left for us. I went to stay with my daughter in Oklahoma and I stayed till January 2012 then went to stay with a friend in Chandler Arizona  it is already May and although I have looked and looked there is no jobs for a 57 year old woman. The skills i have are skills all young people have. So am competing on that level. I have tried fast food, walmart and telemarketing and others as well. . To no avail. There is no welfare help for a single adult under 60 all I can get is food stamps. I have had suggestion after suggestion thrown at me and tried each one. I think that i have tried about everything you can imagine except shacking up with a guy.  I would rather be homeless. My sons are all in college and just barely scraping by on their college money. My daughter has helped all she can and my friend cant help me anymore. So on June 4th, 2012. I become homeless. I decided to write a blog about the trials and errors I go through as an almost homeless person. Most people pass the buck instead of helping. I could get a mobile home for $500 and the rent is only 400 that is my goal to somehow get enough money to get me a mobile home.

I am putting a donate button on here in case someone would like to help. I am not asking for money but i do know there are people who like to help. This button is for them.  Thanks and Ill see you all tomorrow.